Dear Diary,
Why is it that I feel so distant from my friends? I always feel so left out when they are talking about things. I feel like they're all leaving me. To be completely honest, I feel like they're not even my friends anymore. Don't get me wrong, I know they're going to hang out with other people, but I would like to be included in things my friends are talking about. I sit at the table and I think to myself “What are they thinking about me?” I tell them everything about me. I opened up to them and told them everything. I feel like they don't even care about me anymore. I honestly and completely feel like I'm back in middle school. When I was in middle school, I was invisible to everybody. I hated going to school because the only friend I had was my brother who was in high school. I felt like I was the outcast. Like I'm the girl who nobody likes. I thought coming to this new school I would start a new life. Apparently I was wrong. I feel like people are just my friends because I have nobody. I feel like they're my friends out of pity. I sit in class and listen to my friends laughing, and having fun, and all I could think about, is how I wish I could know what they're talking about. I feel like I'm all alone right now.
Sometimes, I wish I could go back to my private school, but then I think I would be getting treated the same way I am here. I still feel invisible here. If I went back to my private school, I would feel invisible to about 20 kids. Here I am invisible to a whole bunch of kids! My whole high school career I've felt invisible to everybody. I don't know what I can do to not feel invisible. I can't make my so called friends talk to me. If they want to talk to me they will, but when they don't talk to me I feel invisible because I don't really have any friends.
Why is it that I feel so distant from my friends? I always feel so left out when they are talking about things. I feel like they're all leaving me. To be completely honest, I feel like they're not even my friends anymore. Don't get me wrong, I know they're going to hang out with other people, but I would like to be included in things my friends are talking about. I sit at the table and I think to myself “What are they thinking about me?” I tell them everything about me. I opened up to them and told them everything. I feel like they don't even care about me anymore. I honestly and completely feel like I'm back in middle school. When I was in middle school, I was invisible to everybody. I hated going to school because the only friend I had was my brother who was in high school. I felt like I was the outcast. Like I'm the girl who nobody likes. I thought coming to this new school I would start a new life. Apparently I was wrong. I feel like people are just my friends because I have nobody. I feel like they're my friends out of pity. I sit in class and listen to my friends laughing, and having fun, and all I could think about, is how I wish I could know what they're talking about. I feel like I'm all alone right now.
Sometimes, I wish I could go back to my private school, but then I think I would be getting treated the same way I am here. I still feel invisible here. If I went back to my private school, I would feel invisible to about 20 kids. Here I am invisible to a whole bunch of kids! My whole high school career I've felt invisible to everybody. I don't know what I can do to not feel invisible. I can't make my so called friends talk to me. If they want to talk to me they will, but when they don't talk to me I feel invisible because I don't really have any friends.