Dear Diary,
I wish I could’ve done some things in my life differently. One thing would be my depression. I wish I could’ve asked for help sooner. I would’ve been so much better by now. But instead I waited a year to tell my parents what was wrong with me. I wish I didn’t wait to tell them. I wouldn’t have this many scars on me. I also wish I never self –harmed because people always ask me “why would you do that to yourself?” They don’t understand how much pain I was in at the time. I felt that I deserved those red lines because my family was falling apart because of me.
Trying to take your own life and your family finding you in the bathroom is the worst thing ever. I scared my family by doing that. I wish I never did that. Seeing your family crying about you makes you feel like a disappointment. My parents don’t like to leave me home alone now, they don’t tell me why but I know why. They don’t trust me. I don’t blame them. I still have the urge but I fight through it because I never want to see my family in that kind of pain again.
I wish I could’ve done some things in my life differently. One thing would be my depression. I wish I could’ve asked for help sooner. I would’ve been so much better by now. But instead I waited a year to tell my parents what was wrong with me. I wish I didn’t wait to tell them. I wouldn’t have this many scars on me. I also wish I never self –harmed because people always ask me “why would you do that to yourself?” They don’t understand how much pain I was in at the time. I felt that I deserved those red lines because my family was falling apart because of me.
Trying to take your own life and your family finding you in the bathroom is the worst thing ever. I scared my family by doing that. I wish I never did that. Seeing your family crying about you makes you feel like a disappointment. My parents don’t like to leave me home alone now, they don’t tell me why but I know why. They don’t trust me. I don’t blame them. I still have the urge but I fight through it because I never want to see my family in that kind of pain again.